Monday, July 27, 2009

Prospectus - The Beginning of The End

Today marks the unofficial end of our creative projects at Full Sail and by Thursday we'll be all but wrapped up with essentially everything. I say that with a bit of sadness but also a renewed sense of accomplishment.

As for what happened, we had our last big test, a group prospectus for Producing Class. This project is arguably the closest experience we'll have to the real world while we're here. In a word, intense.

My group created a concept for a Mountain Dew campaign called, "The Dew Fairy," which use the ploy of the tooth fairy (ours was to resemble a Jack Black-type) who delivered the beverage to college-aged guys who lose their teeth in a variety of ways (ranging from a biker bar ordeal, kicked in the face by a horse, etc.). Overall, the concept was pretty fun (a lot funnier than I am presenting it here) but it kept going back to the one problem with soda -- the TEETH. So inevitably we were doomed before we entered the room.

My role for our group was to pitch this concept to a panel in a way that they'd want to invest in us $1-million.

Since I've been at Full Sail, I've essentially been in the driver's seat as far as being a central part of any and all projects I've worked on. After Final Project, I intended to take a back seat and let others do the heavy lifting while I skidded by and focused on post-graduation. Well, apparently there's a perverse part of me that's a glutton for punishment because I ended up being the point man on this project. I wasn't the Producer on this project - but my role was the point man in terms of pitching the project and having a budget ready for our potential investors. Was I ultimately responsible for how the group did? No, because it was a team effort, but I was to be the voice and face as well as numbers for the project we had been working on. So forget taking the break this month and enter another month of 4-hours of rest a night! lol.

Despite my desire to not be a focal point this month, I know that somewhere deep down I would have regretted not jumping out and being at the center of this. I don't know if it's because I have a natural tendency to lead, a desire to be involved or just plain control issues. Whatever it is, I was at the heart of this matter and despite knowing what we were in for - I was surprised and floored by what transpired.

I honestly cannot remember what happened during the pitch, but I know during the course of it I took the panel on a journey that took them to the place I wanted them to be. I only know this because they admitted as much after they hammered us. After I finished the pitch, we spent the following 10-minutes being grilled and skewered in a manner that we hadn't faced yet. I was fine with it because I knew what the purpose of the evolution was so instead of being offended I was trying to take in what they were looking at so I can apply to any future projects I will present in this manner.

After the debacle was over, the panel paused momentarily before addressing us again, this time as instructors. They detailed our faults and the pointed out what our weaknesses were, where we could improve and why they went after us the way they did. It was an invaluable experience, but one thing stood out to me repeatedly. All of them addressed me at one point and complimented me on the presentation I gave during the pitch. Even the instructor notorious for chastising students during these pitches came up to me afterward, shook my hand and suggested that I should initially pitch projects for people (for a price!) when I get to LA. I was taken aback by it all, and I still don't know what to make of it. But hearing that only adds fuel to the fire that this is what I am meant for.

As far as what happens next, it's essentially all downhill now. The hardest is over with and for the next month (singular!!!) it's time to finally get wheels turning so when I get to LA I can hit the ground running and start building this career into something special. It's only a matter of time before the pieces fall into place - but after passing this final (and hardest) test with flying colors I don't know what's going to stop me...except myself.

I know the hardest is still to come - but I also know that I haven't begun to scratch the surface of what I am capable of and what I can accomplish. This test doesn't even register as a bump on this road - but it serves as a marker for how far I've come. And despite the constant reminders of what's happened over the past 2-years I can say that this was the right decision, no matter how different things may have been.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Demo Reel v.1.0

A short story:

So I finally have a rough edit for my demo reel - which I like but I know still has a lot of holes in it - and then I go to upload it only to find that YouTube has BANNED my AUDIO!!! Freakin' A...I know why they did it, but it takes away so much from the presentation.

Anyway since it's the rough edit of this I figured I would post it anyway. Take a look and enjoy:

Friday, July 17, 2009

GSJG_Post

So this has definitely been long overdue. I've been meaning to give updates regarding God Speed, John Glenn, but when ever I sit down to write I feel so confident about the film that I tend to talk about the unknowns or the next phase of my life instead.

As of right now, we're roughly half-way through the editing process for our film. I have heard a wide range of differing opinions regarding the film from, 'it doesn't cut well together', 'it looks like crap', 'OMG it's amazing', to 'this is going to come out really well!' As far as I am concerned, I love the film except for one scene that I ruined. I know I did, and I still have nightmares about it because I wanted to go in tight on the actors but failed to compensate for distance. I won't mention what scene, because I'll see if you can spot it when I can finally post the film on here.

Film students are a tricky group. We tend to be overly insecure and yet, we also are the most judgmental group of people on the planet (I mean, who else would rip apart all-time greats like, Chinatown, 2001, Jaws as so forth). And it's funny to think about it, because who are we to judge? I know I could have done better on God Speed, John Glenn, hell everyone could have. But that's why we are here. Mistakes are acceptable. Failure is okay. But only under the condition that you learn from them.

And when I look back on it all, I wouldn't trade my most glaring mistake for our best shots. I would rather have not shot our most distinguishing shots and keep the mistakes; even if only because it keeps me humble. I know I have some talent, and I know the 'wow' shots will come. But if I don't error, then how am I to grow? And because of that, I take this one scene in particular and I break it apart. I judge myself on it and I let people rip me apart, and I know that if I run into a similar situation again I will not repeat those mistakes - and make up for my past errors by doing it right.

And with that in sight, I do not look at the criticism I have received as a negative. Everyone here has a voice and most are more than willing to express it. I don't mind if people think I'm the biggest idiot at this school because it will only push me harder to succeed. And if it's me against the world, then so be it. But I won't quit, I will just take it one step at a time, one problem at a time and eventually I will reach the top and I will arrive.

I realize I have spent a good portion so far talking about the negative side the film. This isn't to say it's a bad film. Contrary, I have received a lot of great responses from the majority of our class and especially from our instructors. I intended to shoot this film differently than what I think Full Sail has seen in that past. We didn't have an overwhelming budget, and the set was rather bland (we didn't have a lot of set dressing or things on the walls) so I went in tight on the actors. We had a limited time-budget too, so we didn't have nearly as moving shots as I wanted or the use of the jib because of those time constraints. An example of some of the things we did, and forgive me if this doesn't make any sense, was we shot our talent from about 4-feet away with a 135mm lens and I gave the camera a kinetic movement by playing with the panhandle (I think our camera operators thought I was out of my head within the first few hours we started to shoot, haha). How this translates (and this is not taking into account the Matte Box) is stand in front of a mirror about 4-feet away. now walk to about a foot-and-a-half from the mirror and crop yourself from the tops of your eyebrows to just above the bottom of your chin. Add in a console, headset, shirt and tie and you essentially have 3-minutes of our movie. That's freakin' tight - and despite some people not initially being receptive my initial choice of lens selection, it's those types of shots that people keep raving about!

In the end, I can say that this project has been extremely successful. Despite some difficulties (we easily had more issues to deal with than the other groups) things came out better than I would have expected. Now does this mean the movie is how I visualized it? The answer is No. But like director David Fincher says, "99-percent of filmmaking is compromise," and now I can completely understand what he means. In the end, this project turned out extremely well and while it's not going to win any awards or be recognized for breaking any barriers, what it represents to me is something so much more.

From some outstanding acting (most notably our lead talent) to our set design (yeah is bare, but we completed it) to implementing CG (it's a lot harder than I ever thought) and so forth. This film truly represents my senior thesis. Can I do better, Yes. Easily. But after this experience and having the privilege to work with some outstanding people, I can honestly say that I am a better filmmaker and a better person for it. This is a difficult profession, but I know what it takes and I know I have it in me to succeed. Now it's just translating that into reality.

And as you'll be able to judge for yourself in about another month, you can see what we accomplished. Is it another student film? Yes, but at the same time I think there are some things that will surprise a lot of people and probably some things that will make you cringe. But as stated before, it's okay to fail. At least for now. And with that in mind, I know that despite a lot of mixed feelings about this project that in 5, 10, 15-years, the people who constituted the whole of this movie will be able to look back on it and be proud of what we accomplished, despite their current feelings toward it.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Producing.

For what seems like the sixth-consecutive lecture in a row today, our producing instructors talked about our future. Obviously, things are coming up fast (for some a lot faster than they ever thought), and despite the daunting reality that we are about to enter into the cutthroat world of Entertainment I am getting more and more excited about the possibilities that await. It's funny though, because I"m one of the few who realistically knows what's ahead, and I understand what the coming months and/or years are going to look like.

For example:

(a) a steady diet of cereal, ramen, toast and whatever food I can scrounge by when I'm not being fed on set
(b) the 14-hour days (I just got done with a 12-hour day myself, but what's great is that I'm truly loving them)
(c) the endless networking (something I'm definitely looking forward to)
(d) the harsh reality that I am going to be ripped apart more times than I think I realize
(e) the knowledge that I am going to spend a lot of time unemployed (I will have to fight, kick and steal for my jobs. all of them)

Despite this, I couldn't be more excited. I know without a doubt there is no one who will work harder, sacrifice more or be more passionate about their job than me. I love film, and when I say that it could be misconstrued as arguably the greatest understatement of the decade. This is who I am, this is what I am and this is all I want.

I came to Florida taking an enormous gamble. Shoot, everyone here has. I've taken out loans upon loans and I know that it will take me years to pay them off. But, when I look back at what those loans represent, it is so much greater than the struggle it will take to pay them off. They represent the biggest risk, the most ambitious endeavor and the greatest gamble that I have ever taken - and for what? for something that I know without a doubt I love.

The biggest thing that holds film students like myself back from being successful is fear. A friend of mine looked me in the eyes a few months ago and couldn't believe it when I wasn't scared to death about going into a situation where I knew I would be judged, looked at and put under the microscope for the following day and a half. The truth is, the fear was there and it definitely was real. I just chose to ignore it because I know who I am, and I am comfortable with me. I am not going to wow anyone with my ability to speak, but what I know is that I am someone who is open and willing to take a chance by being myself; and fear will not hold me back from meeting new people or from having a good time.

The same applies in this business. When I met T.J. O'Malley for our 35mm project, he told me about his first day working on Project Mercury. He wasn't even at his new post more than 30-minutes before the head of Flight Operations (the man who ran NASA) found him and ripped him apart for screwing up. T.J. learned immediately that his business and his profession there was absolutely no margin for error, and that encounter stayed with him his entire life.

Although the risks are different in cinema, the same rules apply - and from T.J.'s lesson I can learn for myself. It's not the mistakes that we should be afraid of making, but making the same mistake twice. And if you let the thought of making a mistake hold you back, then this is wrong profession for you. It's inevitable, we are human after all, and mistakes are bound to happen. Just don't let the fear of making them hold you back from fulfilling your potential. Film is an industry chalk full of mistakes (just look at the current list of movies being made today), yet we learn from them and we accept the fact that we did screw up. It's okay to mess up - just don't make that mistake again.

But more so, the fear of making the change to the real world is often times more daunting for people than they realize. I'm honestly scared sh!tless about what's going to come next. But I find comfort in knowing that, and I know that my drive, my passion, my ambition and my willingness to take risks are what will set me apart. I haven't come this far to fail and while success is something that would be nice, I'm not expecting any miracles. Those are earned, and I haven't done a thing yet.

It's time to start working, and it's time to make a difference.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Phase I. The Beginning.

This month marks the beginning of the end of my time in Florida. As such there's only a few weeks left until I finally graduate and move on to bigger and (hopefully) better things. Right now there are a lot of things outside of school that I am working on, and in order to be able to have the full scope of my objectives in place it will consume nearly every minute of every day until Sept 4.

But I figured I would give an update as to what I have been away on. As of right now; I'm stitching together a demo reel for my portfolio, I'm working on organizing my entire projects, I'm working on getting my business cards finalized (they look AWESOME), I'm continuing to go through my database entries for potential employers (nearly an hourly thing I have to keep updating), I'm looking for housing (thank god the roommate situation is sorted). Yet, the biggest challenge and most exciting thing I'm working on and putting together is my own website.

As of right now, I have designs for how I want it to look and the website to function. Everyone tells me it is extremely ambitious, but then again if it weren't ambitious then it wouldn't be me, haha. I'm hoping to have a beta version of the site up in September when I leave, and I'm giving myself an initial completion date of sometime around late-October.

Right now my biggest concern is getting my name out there, being as versatile as possible, making an impression and presenting myself in a manner in which I am as marketable as possible. That's no easy task when you have to compete against millions of other people vying for the same scrappy jobs. This is only the beginning and things are going to get worse before they begin to get better. But everything I am doing is only going to aide me as I begin this new chapter in my life.

However, I know that if I apply myself and work as hard as I know I am capable of then only good things will follow. I have found that I love this profession more than any other; it's where I belong. I am going to push myself as hard as I can to get to where I want to be, and it all starts with myself. And as these final months slowly dwindle away the focus is on two things: school and my future, although the emphasis is shifting more toward post-graduation now.

And just for kicks, I'm attaching an epic track from the original Transformers film of a couple summers past.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Transcendent Melodies.

Do you ever think back on certain parts of your lives and the entirety of that whole can be summed up by one song?

Yesterday, I had the melody for a song that's been in the back of my head for what seems like years stuck on repeat, and so I took the proceeding 45-minutes googling and iTuning, just searching. Finally I stumbled upon this song and immediately I was transfixed back to a period of my life when everything seemed completely peaceful.

The song was, Never My Love by The Association. If you haven't heard this song I'm telling you now to go to iTunes, Google, a downloading torrent of whatever sorts. Just GO. Listen to it, download it, do whatever you have to. It's an amazing song whose brilliance lies in the harmonic nature of the group and seamlessly effortless flow of the melody.

If there was ever a song to fall in love with, this is it.

Monday, July 6, 2009

The List. Looking Ahead.

When I moved to Florida I initially created a list of goals that would determine what I defined as 'success' in my time at Full Sail. With the completion of our final project last month, I realized that I had accomplished all of those goals. As a result, it was time to update this list with a new look. It includes a list of goals for the next 6-months, 1-year and (my favorite) 5-years, and includes a format that can be changed for an optional outlook.

For instance, what is success determined by? For all of us it is something entirely different. For some it would be characterized by going to any restaurant in the world and not having to care what the price is. For others, it's being able to decided to begin production on any movie or idea that pleases them...if only because they want to make it.

For myself, I have thought about it a lot. But I think my overall definition of success is: having the ability to drop everything at a moments notice and fly to the other side of the world for no good reason. Now this might sound ludicrous, but look at it a little deeper. I am have no ties to a relationship or other commitment, I don't have a family of my own and I don't have any commitment to work strictly within the US boarders. So what this means to me is (a) I can fly from the other side of the world to visit my parents and/or sister's family at a moment's notice (b) if I can travel that freely and nonchalantly, then I surely would have enough money to pay off all of my loans and (c) if I'm invited to be working on the other side of the world then surely I must be doing something right in this industry.

However, keep in mind though this definition is subject to change as my life and career continue to evolve and change. But for now, this is what I will set my bar for success at.

Now if any of this has sparked your interest, how would you characterize your idea of 'success'?

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Hawaii. 09. v2.0

More pics from Kauai. Enjoy :)















Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Hawaii. 09.

I almost forgot to mention too. I'm in Hawaii with the family for vacation! It's been so long since I truly went on a vacation, and even though I'm on here for a few days it's truly worth it to come to this garden paradise. Here are a few pics. More to come later.